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I’ve got a feeling . . .   These four words lead most people to the same conclusion – Black Eyed Peas.  I know its a big hit – my kids love it.  I think it is one of the most annoying songs ever released.

I only bring this up because I do have a feeling.  It is a feeling that surfaces periodically throughout the year.  Unfortunately, I can’t regulate it.  Sometimes, I know it’s coming.  On his birthday, I know it will be here.  On other days, like today, I didn’t expect it.

Today, all of Simon’s contemporaries graduated preschool.  It marks the first of many milestones that will be depressing instead of joyous.  I’ve got a feeling . . . .

It’s a feeling of loss.  A feeling of loneliness.  A feeling of deprivation.  A feeling of resentment.  I don’t think it will ever go away.  Hopefully, it just won’t visit that often.